is tantalisingly close...
i can almost see the familar streets and faces
feel the stifingly humidity

And i have come to the stage in my life where i've realised everything in my life, i have. All my material things.. are nice wants.. nice.. but not essential.
haha. so i've never felt so happy. that i'm contented

and for the FIRST TIME ever in my life..
some one called ME PESSIMISTIC *thunder, lightning and big crashing noise*
someone that at the time.. who just knew me a whole THREE days
i was SO insulted at first..
and then i realised..that i have been. particularly at work.. i just haven't been happy. at all.
just plodding through the days.. counting down the hours.. the days.. the end of the wk.
not really enjoying or living in the moment.

its not the pple.. cos i have lovely social time with them.. and we actually go out for dinners and spend time outside work together (cos we all love each other so much. haha).. drinking and drinking... and playing quiz games on PS2 and having an absolute blast.
And knowing i've formed friendships that will continue even after i leave gippsland...

its not the patients. Cos the nice ones are lovely and make up for any nasty ones i ever get

its not the hospital. Cos its a lovely place to start a 1st job.. everyone's friendly.. and even the cafe's food is pretty good

its just the job. i've got enough. enough. of being stuck in the country. i want my life back.
everyone had a crap week... frm the social worker down to all of us.. never heard the F word being flung around so much behind closed doors (well.. just not to patients faces!).
Poor social worker was nearly on the phone 24/7... she was hiding under a table, phone in one hand... to avoid being waylaid by family members sighting her. Its the most hilarous sight.. seeing a 40 yo plus woman going " oh shit!" and trying to duck out of sight.

new words/phrases i've learnt (or loved) this week

bariatic (ie FAT) EG.use in a sentence:" you are a bariatic pig!" so much more classy huh.
festering
jelly slice (love them!)
put put put put puuut! (HAHA. this little fart sound has a whole story behind it!)
hearing someone else saying " lah~!" (yes yes.. there is actually another singaporean dr on the ward!)
I'm not a ching-chong person!(said by yours truly to another msian intern.. and making the aussie nurses laugh)

another 4 more days.. and counting down..
oh btw.. note to self: will be way too fat in sg. serious wt loss req. which will be a non reality.. due to.. new found love: creamy creamy caramel popcorn.
YUMS.