i haven't baked in a long long while
but i've found my motivation this wkend *bigsillygrin*
(because i couldn't sleep for some strange reason..yours truly usually snoozes on sun afternoons...)
to make the best ever custard puffs!
Presenting..

the big fat yums yums.. fresh out of the oven..

and after some fattening up with custard in them :)

i've so ridiculously failed with choux pastry (thats the fancy name for the puff pastry) in the past.. might be abt 3-4 yrs ago??? so traumatised.. i had to throw out the whole batch cos it was FLAT flat.. deflated like balloons when i took them out.. that i never attempted them in a looong time.

and so.. i'm haaappy now! =)

ah. the things in life that keep me amused.

is tantalisingly close...
i can almost see the familar streets and faces
feel the stifingly humidity

And i have come to the stage in my life where i've realised everything in my life, i have. All my material things.. are nice wants.. nice.. but not essential.
haha. so i've never felt so happy. that i'm contented

and for the FIRST TIME ever in my life..
some one called ME PESSIMISTIC *thunder, lightning and big crashing noise*
someone that at the time.. who just knew me a whole THREE days
i was SO insulted at first..
and then i realised..that i have been. particularly at work.. i just haven't been happy. at all.
just plodding through the days.. counting down the hours.. the days.. the end of the wk.
not really enjoying or living in the moment.

its not the pple.. cos i have lovely social time with them.. and we actually go out for dinners and spend time outside work together (cos we all love each other so much. haha).. drinking and drinking... and playing quiz games on PS2 and having an absolute blast.
And knowing i've formed friendships that will continue even after i leave gippsland...

its not the patients. Cos the nice ones are lovely and make up for any nasty ones i ever get

its not the hospital. Cos its a lovely place to start a 1st job.. everyone's friendly.. and even the cafe's food is pretty good

its just the job. i've got enough. enough. of being stuck in the country. i want my life back.
everyone had a crap week... frm the social worker down to all of us.. never heard the F word being flung around so much behind closed doors (well.. just not to patients faces!).
Poor social worker was nearly on the phone 24/7... she was hiding under a table, phone in one hand... to avoid being waylaid by family members sighting her. Its the most hilarous sight.. seeing a 40 yo plus woman going " oh shit!" and trying to duck out of sight.

new words/phrases i've learnt (or loved) this week

bariatic (ie FAT) EG.use in a sentence:" you are a bariatic pig!" so much more classy huh.
festering
jelly slice (love them!)
put put put put puuut! (HAHA. this little fart sound has a whole story behind it!)
hearing someone else saying " lah~!" (yes yes.. there is actually another singaporean dr on the ward!)
I'm not a ching-chong person!(said by yours truly to another msian intern.. and making the aussie nurses laugh)

another 4 more days.. and counting down..
oh btw.. note to self: will be way too fat in sg. serious wt loss req. which will be a non reality.. due to.. new found love: creamy creamy caramel popcorn.
YUMS.

Went to morington's over the long queen's bd w/e
and now that its over...
i'm waaaay too lazy to blog abt it.

this is a selection of pictures.. and the stupid things pple did..
in a nutshell..
it was SO relaxing, i can't remember much of it anymore
except i had to be navigator (again) sighs.

Fish and chips by the pier in Rosebud



it was gd.
the whipping cool winds of winter..
trying to warm up in layers thick of scarves and woolies.
standing shivering by the piers in weirdly funny poses..
the dizzy-ing speedy drive up the curvy swervey road...
which stopped when i mentioned the magic words
" i think i'm goona puke"
(no no.. can't dirty the car..)
the wines that could "speak"
the warm crackling open fire
yummy pancakes, syrup and cookies and cream icecream for breakie
and faye wong serenading while bumming by the beach in the car (too cold)

=)

Nothing like
holding a 3 day old baby in my hands
for the first time ever...
and seemingly appearing like i know what i'm doing.

urghs.
maternity patients...
got called in to see one.
i have no idea
it's weird giving advice to pregnant/post preggers ladies
like.. i know what its like. heh.
and then this one had her bub between her legs on the blanket!
what to do.. had to lift it out of the way,
it was so teensy weensy.. and i have NEVER in my life carried a baby ever
so i sort of picked it-- or rather her.. up.. like.. i was holding my raBBIT.
grabbed under the shoulders.. then the head was sort of flopping abit.. so i went " HM!" and grabbed under the head as well.
it was the nicest feeling it the world tho =)

Saw another pt who has had a grand multi-- meaning she's had 10!!
omg.
and shes like.. 32??
ridiculous.

yawns. sleepy. time for bed.

a brief moment of madeness,
i seriously comtemplated the unimaginable thought of going back to uni
and joining the student rat race once again

Let me emphasize,
the feeling only lasted.. 20 mins.
after clicking on the myraid of postgrad offerings (totally unrelated to physio, i might add)
which consisted of the horror words of " exams" and "assignments" and "study"
i went " nah!"

waaay too soon to entertain such a thought.
and surprisingly, i'm finding it quite enjoyable reading up all my neuro/stroke/med stuff online.. as a referesher.. (since i've handed most back to my lecturers unfortunately)
it actually makes sense now
(not that it didn't before.. but just with a greater sense of happiness.. cos its wanting to read for knowledge)

On a seperate note,
Dad's bought a new cam at the PC show or whatever its called(haha.. whats with old men and their sudden technological savy-ness.. its a phase all dads go thru i reckon---> when they realise they have money and they want a new toy)
He's all happy and excited about it.. and can't wait to take photos on our next hol (IN 4 weeks and counting!!)
Mom's just bleah about it.

i realise i have alot of photos... hiding and i can't find them
will post them sometime..
next week..
when i'm back frm Gippsland again
i can't wait for next wkend!!
it'll be 3 weeks left then.. and a w/e trip to morington! *biggrin*

4 more weeks of work!
(19 days officially..cos got one PH)
3 more weekends to go..
and
i've never counted down like this in my life for anything before.
haha.

really looking forward to HOME!
and seeing da dog :)
(I'm getting really scared of him now cos he gets so excited when he hasn't seen me in a long time, that he peed all over the front of the house the last time. so not cool. I missed the pee cos i ran into the house. haha.)
and going off to china with the parents~!
shopping and eating here i come.

and the scariest thing is..
i can actually see myself working in Frankston already..
and the thought of full time work.
which sucks
because
at this stage
i just wanna take the rest of the yr off.
such a bum.

whoops.
i did the absolute worst thing that could happen as a physio
or would rank up there as one of the worst.
mm.
acutually..
the WORST.


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i dropped my patient today. *sheepish-look*
or rather, she fell and i sort of caught her..
so she landed on the ground in sort of graceful plonk
Luckily her nurse was there close to me talking to someone else,
so we both gave her a hand and stood her back up!

It was funny, cos she was going so well.. and she just accidently didn't move her frame the right way or something..
THANK GOD she didn't hurt herself at all.
(cos she landed half on MY leg)
and after that.. she was still all smiles and laughter and ruefully saying " AH! it's all part of walking isn't it? Don't worry! i'm not going to fill in any complaints!"

Felt so bad for awhile after,
and then.
i got over it.
And she's one of my extremely fussy patients.. who has taken THREE weeks in bed to finally attempt getting up!
so i'm still really happy i'm suceeding with her!
heh! =)