annoyances..

pple that stretch out their legs so far under the study desks in the library that you kick theirs every time you move.
(and i was already cramped, sitting upright)

a guy frm ******* (wun say which country..just that i UNDERSTOOD what he was saying in his language, so u can guess)
who was talking at the top of his voice on the phone in an ABOSOLUTELY quiet study area..
exclaiming about how great the weather is
AIYAH
Shaddup and go outside la

With 3 pple staring each other in frustration (including an aussie..)
i stood up and give him my FIERCEST glare
and then sat down absolutely satisfied.
Well.. u gotta let the stress out somewhere..
haha

On another note...
tram driver was disgusting today!
my GOSH.
There were only 2 pple on the tram (me and this other guy sitting at the back)
and at almost every tram stop,
he was coughing, bring up a sputum plug,
and SPITTING it out of the tram door!!
(even w/o opening the driver's door)
THAT requires skill.
and poor me was sitting right down the front.
HELLO!!!! this is not some third world country ok!
it was bad enough hearing him bringing up his phlegm..
then see him spit like.. at least 5 times at tram stops!
ew.

ok.. back to cardio.
major mugging.
4 more to goooooooooo!!!!!!

i wanted to post this last week..
but wasn't free.

Overhead in Jason's car:
Kingsway is para-LIAO to St Kilda rd

PK: Eh what joy?? say again! say again!
........
ok lah.. my english very lou-zee..

how to apply for job
how to apply for job
how to apply for job?!?!?!

I had my clinic exam today.
stressed.. was SO over stressed this morning i felt like throwing up.
This constant nauseous feeling
even though i hadn't eaten breakfast.
(Now i semi know what a pregnant woman feels.. haha)

I think clinical exams are a thousand times worse than writtens.
Cause you actually gotta assess and treat and REAL patient.. in a max of 40 mins.. and be EFFECTIVE and SAFE.
and you know.. with a real patient.. u never know what they're gonna be like..
AND then.. u get 2 examiners watching you and asking you all these questions.
Bleah.

And out of the 3 specialities.. (cardio, neuro and musc)
i GOT MUSC.
which i thought was the WORST.. cos you NEVER know what they might give you .. can be ANYTHING under the sun... shoulder, elbow, wrist, hip, knee, ankle.. can be fracture.. spinal conditions... rotator cuff repairs... ACL rehab..

With cardio and neuro.. at least its abit more predictable..
Cardio: walk patient and breathing exercises
Neuro: Do ANYTHING u want. they are so stuffed up anyway... so long u can explain why u are doing what u are doing.. Do whatever!

With musc.. u HAVE to treat specific to the condition and know the contraindications/precautions for each.
The possiblities were endless.. and i was SO hyperventilating the whole of yesterday (and decreasing my PaCO2 and increasing my risk of fainting..as Lauren puts it)

God is so good.
I think He is the only one that can calm the fears and anxiety within me.
Like.. even with pple calling me wishing me luck and my parents endless reassurance and support (i really appreciate it tho)
And its funny how my friend's joke was actually really gd encouragement..
because He put all these verses about JOY and PEACE and HOPE within me!!
When i was doing my QT last night..
Even today, when i was subconsiously singing songs in my head..
and after 20 mins.. i realised what the lyrics meant (and started laughing on the tram)
" There's no greater hope
There's no greater joy
All that ever need, i know i'd find in You"

And that "perfect love drives out all fear"!

Indeed. God is GOOD.

And of ALL the patients i got for my exam..
(with all my worrying and worrying..)
I got a Hip resurfacing patient!
(and i treated a patient with the exact same condition when i was doing my placement there earlier this yr..)
So.. it was all good
(ie.. enough to pass)
*cross fingers*

5 MORE TO GO!!!

Oh..I've heard countless "joy" jokes in my life
This is the most original one I"ve heard in a long long time

A friend was meeting up with me. When she saw me, she said to me with an absolutely straight face:
"God struck me with a thought today when I was on the tram.
He said " You shall go out with joy"


(refer to Ishiah 55:12 if u are wondering what i am talking about. ha.)

i was SO stressed up studying for exams...
then i called lauren..
and ended up talking for an hr..

and she totally de-stressed me with her crap..
and yups.. all the stress has gone out of my head
its bad in a way.
i feel so relaxed and happy
but i feel ready to study the whole night now!
WOO!~
i think its all the happy hormones from the laughing..

think i will be going regional next yr most prob..
thinking long and hard abt working in the city hospitals..
and i feel.. even though i get a job..
i wouldn't be happy.
sure.. it looks great on the resume.. and u get heaps and heaps of experience..
but.. satisfaction wise : 0

just not cut out to be a big hospital physio first out i reckon.
of course.. there are lots of fears working country,..
like the moving... and lonliness and lack of friends.
i am scared.
so so scared.
yet i feel a peace within me when i think of working regional as a career. like.. i feel comfortable.. like.. thats where i'm meant to be.
its just where now.
God, its in Your hands.

Contrary to what most pple think ..
that i'm an outright Sanguine and sanguine..
like i always knew (and know)
I'M NOT!

i'm a Phlegmatic Sanguine!

The Introvert The Watcher The Pessimist

Strengths

The Phlegmatic's Emotions
Low-key personality
Easygoing and relaxed
Calm, cool and collected
Patient well balanced
Consistent life
Quiet but witty
Sympathetic and kind
Keeps emotions hidden
Happily reconciled to life
All-purpose person

The Phlegmatic As A Parent
Makes a good parent
Takes time for the children
Is not in a hurry
Can take the good with the bad
Doesn't get upset easily

Weakness

Lax on discipline
Doesn't organize home
Takes life too easy (well.. gonna be tai tai la.. so doesn't matter. hiaks)

Well.. most of it is quite true.. esp the parenting bit.. i can see myself in both the strengths and weaknesses. haha.
and the 2nd sanguine part of me.. is i guess..the happy part everyone else sees. =)

Well.. what are u?
take the test HERE!

can't believe it, can't believe it!!
TWO weeks in a ROW!!!!

the careerone section of the age was MISSING AGAIN
and i only buy the SATURDAY AGE cos of the jobs guide.
cost me $2 OK! for a whole thick newspaper w/o the section i WANT!
oh *&%%%$#&^()_!!!
its a conspiracy theory, i tell u
and i didn't even take the top copy on the newsstand just in case some one messed up the papers... i took the one THIRD underneath.

*grumbles grumbles*
only thing is jan gleefully ran off with the Sudoku section of the paper.
the only other part i'm interested in.
Samurai Sudoku. (Its a x5 worse version of sudoku)
she is gonna get a major spinning headache. HA
anyway.. i don't have the time for puzzles now.. *sighs*

just have to go online to look for job now. ARGH!

I dunno whhhhhy...
my bd always seems to drag on forever,
not in a bad way..if it was any other year (ie no exams in 2 wks.)
i would be over with moon with all the eating..

and the MAIN reason i decided to have a party.. is so i could celebrate with everyone TOGETHER.. ONCE and get it over with.
Then NOW.

Had bd breakfast with family
BD lunch with physios
BD dinner with close friends

Post BD high tea in the dandenongs with family (today)
SO FAT!
and the amount of study.. aghs..

there are 5 stages..
Denial
Anger
Acceptance
Action
Change

me and lauren agreed we were still in stage 1.
which is very bad.
gotta get thru the stages in a WHIZ and let the whole ga-bloop of stress land like a ton
it sort of has..
with the prospect of exams (over in less than mth)
graduation (less than 2)
registration.. job job and job interviews
PR stuff.
getting more stressed by the min.

ok. going into total study mode frm this wkend onwards.

21 egg tarts for a 21st birthday
thats my CG for u. in front of the whole ocf.
how sweet is that
and FYI. no i did NOT finish them all.

had a great 21st birthdy party.
i had fun.
i hope the pple did too.
ended up with WAAAAAY too much food.
gonna last us like.. the next wk.

at least it wasn't b-o-r-i-n-g
jeremy, jan, nat and dor actually played for me.
so touched.
all those songs..really awww.. appreciate them so much..
If we hold on together... "peng you"

oh.
and i got sabo-ed. i had to sing the ENGLISH version of "peng you" in front of everyone.
it was the most corny english ala kareoke translation ever.
all the words didn't fit the tune..
and it was just DODGY
like " we will walk this life together .. and finding true love"
wah lau. everyone was laughing their heads off.

speeches were great..
and my family was great..
they were just helping and cooking the whole day,
and i really appreciate the effort they went to for me to be the happiest person ever.


I GOT A VW BEETLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
was so shocked when i opened the box.
(its a model) --very cool .. can open the doors. haha.
and i just screamed
in front of my dumpling CG.
and the length they (or rather bunny and BHD) went to, to try to get me a lime green one.. and the exact painting of the thing..
so touched.
and it's not very clear cos of the size of the pic... but i think jason was including his toyota car-key as part of my prez.
THAT i don't mind.
ha.

i realise God has given me so much. Just overwhelmingly in terms of friends and family.
True and caring pple i can count on.
And know.. that.. most of them there last night.. will be pple.. i'll probs be in contact with nearly forever, no matter where we go.
Thank Him for His grace.
I don't deserve it really.

Now, its back to reality and full speed studying ahead for the next 2 weeks!

Jeremy's here on hols!
i miss him.
he changes things..
i get to be a whiny rat again.
he seranades the household with his guitar and amazing voice.. singing songs of praise.. and all sorts of stupid ah niu songs

Dinners are so fun.
extremely corny..
and now too.. with mr simon "salmon" tong aka tong-er aka simooone...
he refuse to tell me his chi name.. cos of his CMI chi accent
haha..

the salmon nametag was funny.
at dinner one night, we had coral trout (which looks exactly like salmon)
and when i asked him what fish it was.. i heard "SIMON"
Me: Oh.. so i know what u taste like now!
Mr T: You know what i taste like meh? (it came out sounding VERY dodgy)
Jan (to him): Oei!
Me: hahaha..

i'm glad his comfortable enough now to make fun of me.
and calls me "jaffar"
he used to be SO awkward with me and sue
one word answers and all.
He's funny.. with an extremely dry sense of humour.. tells all his jokes with a total straight face and a slightly CMI singaporean accent.
haha. yes. he does try.
the house is so noisy these days.
with 7 pple living together.
its fun tho.. but really need to concentrate and STUDY!!
haiz.

Cellgrp tonight was funny.

We had homecell at "EeeEEE-kified's"!!
Steamboat rice cooker style.
of all the pple.. i had to sit next to ee-kified today during dinner.
ARGHS.
that PERSONAL SPACE INVADER!
put his hand over the back of my chair!!!
(he does that to ALL pple he sits next too.. no matter in OCF in uni.. or whether its a guy/girl..)
and then started drumming his fingers on the back of my chair somemore.

and jaime was sitting next to me on the right,
and i gave her THE look.
and after looking confused for a min.
she got it.
and burst out laughing.

and of ALL the shirts i wore today, i had to wear my "big brother" one with the BIG EYE on it (no thanks to salmon tong and the freebies he gets everywhere.. hence my free big bro shirt),
and what does ee-kified wear, but a shirt with a BIG EYE on it too! (not the same as mine, thankfully)
but STILL.. we were 2 pple.. sitting nx to each other.. with BIG EYES on our shirts!!
ARGHHH!! ARGHHH!! ARGHHH!

and theeeeeeeeen... when i was trying to delete some embarrasing pic of me off the digi cam,
he came frm behind me, sorta wrapped his arms across mine and tried to take it frm me.
trust me.
i let go immediately.
the digi cam i mean.
SO EEeee-kiFYING!!!

i was so horrified i was laughing sohard that i was half crying.. cos i felt so vIoLAtED.
In a funny way.
Dunno y everyone was juz laughing so hard and much today,.
i reckon it was just me.
I started laughing.. and this other guy spit out his squid while laughing too hard.

Good Bs.. good gelati...
and good fellowship.
Good night!

i can't believe i haven't blogged for so long
i guess life is just passing me by eh.

and that i haven't blogged about my new placement after paediatrics either!
guess its just blah and not that worth talking about.
i mean. how interestin can research get?
ooH! i analysed my results today and X has a relationship with Z?!
yeah. faSInating stuff.

In 3 weeks worth of research.. i've done my supervisor's poster 1m x 1m presentation for research wk (a FULL RESEACH PRESENATION POSTER mind u.)
and no acknowledgement that i did the work somemore on the poster *grumble*

writing her publication paper for a journal.. oh.. apparrently i get my name under the acknowledgement bit in the journal article ( a published journal! with MY name in it! how exciting.)
well.. it is. for the fact, when it probs comes to writing down the acknowlegment bit when she finishes writing the paper in 2 or so months, she'll probs forget about me.

and analysing more stupid results at the moment.
and. i got hooked on Sudoku. haha. that number puzzle game in the newspapers.
dunno why i'm wasting all my brain cells when exams are in 2-3 weeks. *mega sighs*

4 more days of clinic EVER!
so happy.