is nearly upon us again
and this year its so different
being in melb
and not by choice.
a part of me is happy and comfortable with life
a part of me is so so sad for not being able to be home..
to nua
do nothing
just be in the atmosphere of home
where you can NOt go out with friends.. abeit be bored.. but just know its home

And yet.. i thank God for every person hes brought into my life at this stage
that there is always someone there for me
Amazing love
amazing grace
And my heart goes out.. to all in this christmas season.. who lack family.. or have no one to spend this time with
There is truly nothing in this world.. that epitomises chirstmas.. more for me.. than the love of God AND the accompany of family and friends.

i'm so sian now i feel like deleting everything i just wrote.....................................