God is good.
All the time
Through the last 2 weeks. It's been bad.
Internet in the hse died the NIGHT before presentation when i had practically 0% of it done.
Was hyperventilating for 1/2 hr.. imagining having to stay over at a fren's place for the night... having no sleep... being SO stressed.
8pm already and NO PRESENTATION for the nx morn.
could see the future flashing before me.. my marks.. my supervisors.. arghs.
Thank God for dial up and an ancient connection we have on our computers that allowed us internet access ( at a relatively ex price) but a that moment.
Who cares.
Was so stressed the 2 weeks.. couldn't eat much. Think i lost 2 kgs.. (which i have heh heh gained back over easter camp (thats another story))
But God is faithful. And i thank Him for all the verses.. songs..that He placed in my heart..to keep me going.. to keep reminding me that i'm not alone.. that.. "all things are possible".
It;'s been the crappiest time ever ever in all my hospital placements.. really struggling.. even now.. nearly a week since its over.. i'm so scared. I have so many doubts. Wondering if i'll ever make it through this year. I'm scared of failure.
God teaches many things. I never failed when i was in Sg.. (except maths.. haha) and even then, God proved that the end of it that He has a plan. I've failed more times in Aust on a bigger scale than ever in sg.. my driving test.. (all that $$..^%$%$#) among other things.. but He still shows that at the end of the day.. looking at the big picture is what matters.
God, help me know you are with me. Help me know you have a plan and a purpose in where and what you have placed me in. That in every place i go, You go before me and prepare the way. Help me to trust in You.
